Mommy, look what I can do!!

The state of boredom has officially kicked in and,

thus this has risen from the ashes to take its place.

I shall eventually learn how to make some snazzy desktops.

However, this is what I must settle with (which isn't necessarly a terrible thing).

It is kind of relaxing thing at the moment.

A rainy tuesday evening, sipping on some earl grey,

listening to: Within Temptation

hmmm gives me an idea for another video, Damn you Alan!! ;-) or if anything this song fits perfectly with my story, "Inside the Fire" ---> damn you , Snape!

...staring at various grey scale pictures.

All around peaceful day, I think.

Care to join me?

Avada Kedavra

The faintest growl escaped his lips, for a moment betraying his pressence.

No matter how fast or far I run, I will never escape that velvety utterance.

Please release me from my minds bondage,

I cannot fathom this eternity of sufferage.

One touch, one taste.... It's all I ask....

curse this occlumency!

I cannot take it.....

Avada Kedavra!!

-Disturbed Blue Dragon 2008

I escaped my final momentBut it’s turning back at meOn every corner I can feel it waitingJust a moment, no awarenessI could easily slip awayAnd then I’ll be gone foreverI’m searching,I’m fighting for a way to get throughTo turn it awayIt’s waiting, always tryingI feel the hands of fate, they’re suffocatingTell me what’s the reasonIs it all inside my headCan’t take it no more!All around me I see dangerAnd it’s closing in on meEvery second I can hear it, breathingI can’t stand the fear inside meCause it’s leading me astrayAnd it will be my endingI’m searchingI’m fighting for a way to get throughTo turn it awayIt’s waiting, always tryingI feel the hands of fate, they’re suffocatingTell me what’s the reasonIs it all inside my headCan’t take it no more!But no one faced what's coming my way. And I will let my fear fade awayWhatever may be, I'll have to find out.It’s waiting, always tryingI feel the hands of fate, they’re suffocatingTell me what’s the reasonIs it all inside my headCan’t take it no more!

The Phantom Nerd

I have cursed myself on the black rose of this impetuous infatuation.
Again, to be made a knave among fools.
Always I have been betrayed by the stars,
Forever playing my role as fate's master puppet.
I yearn to scream these tears of fury and flame.
Alas, I ponder within my soul's abode.
Forced to have this love unrequited,
Punished to the depths in eternity's passage of time.
-Disturbed Blue Dragon 2008

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I bow before you , a humble obsessed nerd of a imaginary beings. Does everything have to remind me of Severus? Is what I seek most , the dark hero? Of course what perfect way to describe the war that rages within me: The Phantom of the Opera. Please with a quill in hand and an open heart, you decide which is better (hmmmm Nightwish or Gerard Butler... tick tock, the clock is moving rapidly), either way, standing ovation for Webber! Okay, no more swooning like the innocent school girl that I am not.

OR

*sigh* I bid you all a nightly farwell. The dreams of this dragon tonight bode to be one of a sweet nature--> Severus, Gerard Butler and exquisite music of rage, passion and all the lovely creatures of the night.

The Oneiric

I know that you cannot say the words, as you turn to walk away.

We shall fight the alarm clock screaming monsters for eternity.

Under the gleam of silver moonlight, the last tear is shed.

Like crimson blood, it's glow stains the night.

How can you be nothing more than my minds shadow?

Lost in these corridors of longing and pain,

I search to find you, encompassed in the cold mist of denial.

Oh, great, give us one night of reality.

So, that we may plunge into folly and passion that has been negated.

Darkness, fumes, 'a stopper in death',

I must settle for the surreal and only hear your whispers on the wind.

Calling you back, so you may warm my thoughts.

-Disturbed Blue Dragon 2008

Who shall I say is calling?

His darkness calls out to me and yet his light is what shines through.

Is this what madness feels like?

Brought forth by that which we cannot have?

Screaming, urging, the blinding night takes hold.

I seek to find the comfort in his bellowing cape.

What would I give to be reflected in those eyes, to be the object of his mind.

All that echos is temptation.

I look for that hesitation, that shadow of a smile.

Begging, pleading I seek the release I have been denied.

Nothing more than an illusion of the spectrum.

The icy tears of regret and shame stain the ground.

I pray , I fall into the abyss and remember those eyes of passion and pain.

I will be cursed to never forget, my Snape.
-Disturbed Blue Dragon 2008

A song for Snape:


We used to swim the same moonlight waters

Oceans away from the wakeful day-

~My fall will be for you

My love will be in you

If you be the one to cut me

I`ll bleed forever~(x2)

Scent of the sea before the waking of the world

Brings me to thee

Into the blue memory-

~My fall will be for you

My love will be in you

If you be the one to cut me

I will bleed forever~(x2)

Into the blue memory

A siren from the deep came to me

Sang my name my longing

Still I write my songs about that dream of mine

Worth everything I may ever be

The Child will be born again

That siren carried him to me

First of them true loves

Singing on the shoulders of an angel

Without care for love n` loss

~Bring me home or leave me be

My love in the dark heart of the night

I have lost the path before me

The one behind will lead me~(x2)

Take me

Cure me

Kill me

Bring me home

Every way

Every day

Just another loop in the hangman`s noose

Take me, cure me, kill me, bring me home

Every way, every day I keep on watching us sleep

Relive the old sin of Adam and Eve

Of you and me

Forgive the adoring beast

Redeem me into childhood

Show me myself without the shell

Like the advent of May

I`ll be there when you say

Time to never hold our love

~My fall will be for you

My love will be in you

You were the one to cut me

So I`ll bleed forever ~(x10 fades out)
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An Evening of Bliss....

The man of black, with his heart of stone.

A life of regret, destined to be alone.

With his skin of alabaster and hair of coal.

His searing eyes , protrude deep within my soul.

I turn to liquid, his gaze felt deep within me.

Mmmmm the feeling, I remember so clearly.

Much to my regret, from him there is no touching.

I MUST find my satisfaction with this evasive mind fucking.

Oh! the ecstasy in my head.

I can almost feel his warmth in my bed.

Sadly, he is nothing more than my imagination.

Alas! I must settle for this current situation.

The climax comes, and I scream, SEVERUS SNAPE!!

Once I gain composure, hoping he decided to wait.

But to my devastation, he disappeared into the corridors of my mind.

However he will be back, for my next quick fix, .... Adieu, until next time.

-Disturbed Blue Dragon 2008

I bet you say that to all the boys....

"On a hot summer night would you offer your throat to the wolf with the red roses?"

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"Eyes as brown as mahogany

Hair as black as ebony

Robes that sway along with the wind

Cool and calm, cold as ice

That's my Snape, I love him so."

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Today, I am feeling eloquently charged and so all I can say is....2 down and one to go, and then ... perhaps some sweet silence amongst the chaos.