"What did we learn on the show tonight, Craig?"

Hmmm well for one thing, I learned that the Canadian government is on the back of a giant turtle. Oh yeah, I know, who would have thunk it? To think that the jokes... I mean, leaders of this country need to definitely take swimming lessons, because no one swims in Canada, is down right preposterous. The turtle could dive at any moment and we have nothing but an old pair of skates from the 1970's and a bad cup of coffee... damn you Stephan Harper... damn you!

I think of the three comedians I would like to obtain salmonella over a cheap dinner with, I have come to this conclusion:
-Lewis Black, I feel after reading your book, 'Me of Little Faith', religious ranting can be sexy but I feel I would have to wear a diaper around you, and not just over the salmonella either.
-Colin Mochrie, the internal voice in my head. Rubbing your beautiful shiny head would bring me much joy or at least some good luck.
- Craig Ferguson, I have always been a sucker for an accent. You can come to my house and act inappropriate anytime.

I am reading (always reading, try it sometime you ignorant sods.) John Ralston Saul's: 'A Fair Country'. Quite a read, really, and not because he is married to Adrienne Clarkson, even though that could be a compelling argument there. He truly puts Canada in her place.

I am also now looking to count on anyone BUT myself. Is there anyone sane left out there? I am even looking to sent out a call via space communication. Men are idiots, women are idiots ( see, I believe in equality). I think the movie 'Must Love Dogs' puts it all in perspective. But online ads , are you fucking kidding me?, they suck. Lets learn to mingle as people first, like the good old days, and fuck I am only 24 and feel like I grew up during the depression. Now society's collective stupidity IS leading me to depression. No, people, just because I talk to some people online does not mean I want to fuck you, and even when I say I DON'T WANT TO FUCK YOU, they still don't take the hint. Do I have to come through your screen and stab you multiple times for you to get the hint.

Well okay in reality we didn't learn anything new today, just reiterated what I always felt, and those who know put up with on a daily basis (thank you, you sick fucks).

Ancora Imparo

I am listening, truly listening, to the silence;
What does it say with its vibrant colours and baritone voice?
It beckons me to its silky depths of oblivion.
Do I have the strength to hang on this time?
The winds of the past are strong, always threatening to lead me astray.
Come with me, through the ancient corridors of my mind, I am scared of its shadows.
I juxtapose your innocence, your light.
Help me stay afloat...
I shall always be an outsider:
Listen, truly listen

DisturbedBlueDragon 2008
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This collective consciousness is sickening, I shall break away. I realize ones family/friends is supposed to be the epitome of importance and love, this has never nor will ever be the case... why you ask: I despise irrational thoughts and actions. Growing up/living in a world where those who you accept into your bubble act only in what is best for them is very tiring things indeed.

No one pays attention nor listens, they just wait for their turn to speak. I listen, I give advice, I take everyones shit, this is my (please forgive the pun) 'cross' to bare. It seems to be my destiny to allow the masses to be reckless with my heart and time, to use as they see fit. Yes, I get it, you all feel so shitty about your life and your decisions, that now you must 'pay it forward' upon those who care. Thank you.

The ony saving grace is that of that which rises from the ashes my 'Phoenix'. Please grow up knowing that life truly is what you make it and the world needs someone who is thankful and puts forth the ideals that are not corrupted nor for personal acceptance and pleasure.

Lets go save this forsaken world because I despise apathy and ignorance.

Today's public rant has been brought to you by a great philosophy:

The fundamental difference between nice people and good people is this - nice people dream, and talk about changing the world, but they lack the courage to make the sacrifices required to do it - good people are willing to make the sacrifices, and do change the world.
R. Dart (Poli-Sc prof)

The Song of the Phoenix

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I obtained enlightenment yesterday, but I think I want my money back. Sometimes there is bliss to be sought in ignorance. This world is such a confusing place, I am on the straight road to utter madness... and not of a joker variety. I mean totally gone batman!! Its almost puts (or has put me in tears) to see people lying, cheating, killing, etc all because they felt like it'. I feel this way and this is without being a believer of the angry jesus variety neither. Well I would like shoot everyone IN THE FACE who does not think/care about the choices they make and how it effects the greater whole. I realize that humans are imperfect, however on a daily basis, you are telling me that all the shit in this world that occurs is not because people are just too fucking lazy to take the road of a more moral path, and yes there are 14 shades of grey, but really people, fuck you see someone starving, FEED THEM, you see some crying, you see if they are alright... humbleness is a powerful thing, I think we should all drink a hefty glass of it!!. Okay, I feel like.... awwhh just listen to a good song, staring at an awesome actor.

TICK TOCK CLOCK

Here I sit, bored out of my fucking mind. I have studied all I can for this political science exam (which having dave's notes, much isn't needed) and I still have 3 hours until he lets me write it. TICK TOCK CLOCK blah!!

I am such a nerd, I want this blasted lame summer to be over, I am actually looking forward to taken my classes in the fall. These are the kind of classes that boost ones G.P.A... Anthro, Phil and certainly not least another Poli-Sci with Dave, ooohhh boy. But again TICK TOCK CLOCK I am waiting to find out if I am in Psych (waiting for 'Coach' that is to put in the final marks , so I can be registered in the 102 class)

Waiting, waiting, always waiting...

I am thinking (a shock , I know) ... no I know I AM NOT STUPID, and yet I get the feeling, that there are those around me who make themselves feel better by pointing out my mistakes. I would like to believe that if one IS TRULY INTELLIGENT would know that they are not great at everything and would see that EVERYONE has strengths and weaknesses... from that : here let me go first....

Social Sciences like Anth and Poli-Sci are something I truly enjoy and not so much with the Maths and other sciences... I am okay with this, and yet you don't see me pointing out and bragging... ITS CALLED BEING HUMBLE, its a great quality to have. Next, I find it odd if one claims to be a great writer and never shows their work or has other people basically write it for them, and in the end never showing their 'great' grade.... Hmmmm I don't think that makes a great writer. I can at least admit, my grammar is not the greatest and yet ( I can show these) the lowest I received on any term paper is a B+, Hmmm and yet you are better , I see. I am not seeking to belittle, I just want you to understand and not be so apathetic when you hurt those around you. If you still think I am a bitch from writing this, so be it, then I am a bitch, however a bitch who spoke her mind without the intent to hurt those in the process. (*sigh* yes I can see how that is 'bad' thing.)

Maybe we will see this played out more next semester when anth comes around and the competition is there, I am sure ( as we learned in psych), when one does bad, on come the excuses.... ( *insert why one did so bad here*) TICK TOCK CLOCK

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"When life hands you lemons, make lemonade.
When life shits on you, make shit flavoured lemonade
and watch someone else drink it.
While trying not puke your face off."

-Dane Cook

Ode to the perfect man, read to me...no wait, lets hold hands and skip

Okay, where am I going with this? I don't know, but why don't we go on a journey together?

I know I realize I bash the penis every chance I get.. ( no I am not an angry lesbian, nothing wrong with being a lesbian, I just hate that male organ for other reasons) ...

Anyway, first of all it is the ugliest thing I have EVER seen. Now, before you go getting your panties in a bunch, I know I am not much to look at either, but I can at least admit that with some dignity. Looks are trivial, so putting that aside, Know this: I do exist! No, I don`t want sex because you think I am being coy with you. Talk with me first, know me and then we will see where this leads. I AM NOT A WHORE!! and before you all start pointing fingers, this is to all and no one in particular

Okay that out of the way, I am sick of feeling like I have to compete for a lousy date with people, what makes you so special, that I get put on the back burner? I just want a chance, a chance at life and all it has to offer and not have to force myself to be something I am not for the sake of something you think and I know I will never be.

I want to wake up beside you (morning breath and all), and still feel the butterflies like a first kiss. I want to know you will be there even when I am going through my "John Cusack, lover to Alan Rickman, dead on a toilet" phase. I want to be in perfect union with you, like warm rain on a sunday afternoon.

Does he exist ? Will it be with me?

Watch me lament and cry the sweet salty tears of ignorant love.

Postal...or Bust

Practically another year has passed and I am heading towards the anniversary of the day I escaped from the womb. The passage of time seems to elude me, into thinking there is some greater purpose, but the ironic thing is: 'Only time will tell.'

Yes, imagine the Dragon has issues, just as the rest of the world. Some I have delt with, and others chose to move to the land of denial ( I hear its great this time of year.)

Where did all the logic go? Did I miss something along the way? Now I am lost somewhere in ellusive timespace where parents scream of 'no notices on the notice board, the green chair is ruining my life and you had a bad relationship/abused because you left the lights and computer on"---> Oh yes these arguements did occur. Alright you can stop laughing now, and tell me how to deal with utter stupidity?!

As much as I would like to think that 'Out of the Ashes' was born as an emmaculate concept.... No, HE WAS!! , Dealing with 'The Shithole of Darkness" surfaces every now and again. All I can say to stupid fucking penis' whom ignore something so beautiful as THAT BEING... Fuck you. hell will not be kind to that lack of soul you currently possess.

Vengence on those who make this world ... yes oh so perfect that it is... start thinking ... DAMN IT !! ---> "15 FUCKING CENTS!!!" (Thanks Dane Cook, you help.. a little)

I am going to be selfish for a second here... here's what I WANT:

- Candlelite Dinner, The Opera...A Proper date if you will!!
- My son to live in utter happiness and tranquility
- Alan Rickman - to read to me every night.
-People to actively follow the declaration of human rights
- Happily Ever After, for everyone, yes even you RUBY... we shall possess it one day!

Selfish I know.

Foamy beckons to me, he will make it all better, DAMN squirrel.